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If you need a mattress, come to the Nicolet mattress sale! It's on Saturday, October 13th, from 10am-5pm in the Nicolet HS Library! All proceeds go towards helping the Nicolet Orchestra fund their educational musical trip to Disneyland (we DO actually play on the trip, not just go to the park)!!! 

If you mention me (Say you were referred to by Julia Carmen Vascan), you get $50.00 off your purchase!!!

Tell your friends, tell your family, tell your family friends! Spread the word to anyone and everyone you know! We need a lot of money raised!

It's times like these...

when you feel truly thankful for your family, friends, and other people that influence you.

I am thankful for...

my mother,
my father,
my sister.

My friends from First Stage,
my friends from Nicolet.

My inspirations (which include)
Michael Joe Jackson
and
Amelia Earhart.

I am also thankful for the people that care about me,
and the people that look out for me.

I wouldn't be who I am without all of you.

Thank you.

I'm gonna write again.

So.
Life is AMAZING.
I am AMAZING.
Life is in balance.
I am in balance.
I have close people/friends.
They are AMAZING.
The end.
For now.
(To be continued.)

P.S. Expect bursts like this every once in a while.
P.P.S. OMG THIS WEEKEND.
P.P.P.S. The end. For now.

You know that...

warm and fuzzy feeling you get when there is a particular thing in your life that makes you SO happy?
Well, I happen to have that feeling.
And it's great.
Only question is:
Will I act on this feeling?
Probably...
when the time is right,
and when I know for sure.
I think I do...
confirm for me, will ya?
<3.

(More to come soon, hopefully!)

So I haven't posted in a while....

Well, this year is a new start, that's for sure.
Honestly, I don't know whether to be sad, or to be overjoyed.
I have good grades, good friends, I have a good life.

There is a piece that is missing.
Thought I got it!
Guess I did not.

It does make me sad, you know?
Because I really thought it was there, within my grasp.
I guess not.

And you know the stupidest part of it all?
Now I am sitting here,
wallowing in my self pity,
and listening to Keane (and while they are AWESOME)
when I could still be listening to Keane but doing much more useful things with my time.
Like forgetting about that piece that I thought I almost had.
It's still gonna be in my mind though... you have to realize that.

Have fun this weekend, okay?
Don't be like me.
Because being like this can really bring down your mood.
Like it did and is doing now.

And you, have fun too. Hope you have fun without me. Too bad I actually wanted to go.

AHEM.

From Merriam Webster Online:

1: I and the rest of a group that includes me : you and I : you and I and another or others : I and another or others not including you —used as pronoun of the first person plural — compare i, our, ours, us

From Dictionary.Com and Collins English Dictionary:

1. refers to the speaker or writer and another person or other people: we should go now

Here's a good question...

WHAT'S THE DEFINITION OF THE WORD WE?

I don't know if this will work... but lets see.

I was just gonna make A HUGE mistake here. WOOPS.

What.Is.Happening?

I sit.
The squat Pen
rests as snug as a gun.
Boom
boom
boom.
Dear |___|,
Stop.
I can't
take it
anymore.
This pain.
This hurt.
This sorrow.
No one
should be able
to live
like this.
I can't take it anymore.
It hurts
too much.
No one
likes me
loves me
or cares about me.
I sit.
The squat pen
rests as snug as a gun.
Old,
alone,
done for.
A single tear
falls on my paper.
Why
aren't you
LISTENING?!?
I CAN'T
TAKE THIS ANYMORE.
I don't want
to go THAT far
BUT IT HURTS.
AND YOU AREN'T
DOING ANYTHING.
HELP!
I'm calling out to you
for love
and hope
and support.
Are you listening?

Looking Into Emotion

Looking Into Emotion

When you look into the eyes of the world,

what do you see?

You see hope, and fear,

Famine and drought,

Togetherness, and loneliness.

When you look into the eyes of a child,

what do you see?

You see thanking and longing,

Happiness, and sadness.

When you look into the eyes of every person on -this earth,

what do you see?

You see only one thing,

Emotion.

My Heart (Version Number 2)

My Heart (Version Number 2)
My Heart breathes, the air of the world,
My Heart sees, the faces of the world,
My Heart beats,
My Heart beats,
My Heart beats.
Yet there is only one...
Only one face...
it will never forget.
Can you guess who's face it is?

It's yours.

My Heart beats, the steady beat of a drum...
But when I'm around you...
it just runs,
and wants to become one...
with yours.
Mmm...Mmm...Mmm...
I need you here with me because
without you I can't survive.
Are you Listening?
Are you Listening?
Are you listening?

My Heart (Original) Dedicated to My Mother, for all the support she has given me throughout my life.

My Heart (Original)
Dedicated to My Mother, for all the support she has given me throughout my life.
My Heart sees, the faces of the world,
My Heart breathes, the air of the world.
But there's one of the faces it will remember,
It's yours.
You were with me from Day one,
You were with me in the first moments of my life.
You taught me life lessons, that I will never forget.
I love you.
I LOVE you.

Mysterioso

Mysterioso
When I look into the eyes
I was wrapped in a cocoon
Of the person in disguise,
I soon realized,
Seeing the light of the moon,
I had to guess
to confess.
Can he see,
No more LIES!
He belongs with me?

Forever Yours (Inspired by 'The Scientist' By Coldplay)

Forever Yours (Inspired by 'The Scientist' By Coldplay)

Nobody said it was easy,
to get back you've lost.
It is so hard,
to find what you're missing.
Nobody says they are perfect.
Everybody has their flaws.
But if you accept me
for who I am
I will be,
Forever yours.
Nobody said it was easy
to find you
and get you back.
And nobody said it was easy
to find your heart.
But everyone says it is easy
to be yourself.
Then why is it hard for me?
If you find me,
somewhere in your heart,
If you just be yourself,
If you accept me for me,
Then I'll be,
Forever yours.

Marry Me... (Inspired by Marry Me by Train)

I just LOOOVE Train. (:-D


Marry me.
Walking down the path,
everything looks like snow.
flowers in my hair
tear drops everywhere,
Now my face is shining
happiness breaking through
everything is melting
everyone is so
full of emotion
Marry me,
and I promise
to do what you ask
Marry me
and I'll care for you
through sickness and old age,
even when you're going,
even when it's showing
marry me.
Marry me,
and I know that we'll be happy
till the end of time.
Marry me...
we may have our ups and downs
but everything will be alright.
Marry me.
(ooh... ooh... ooh)
Marry me,
And I will always be there,
waiting, being with you.
(Ahh Ahh Ahh
Ahh Ahh Ahh Ahh...
Ahhhhhh Ahh Ahh)
Marry me...
Marry me...
Marry me...

Untitled #4, inspired by Michael Jackson and Akon's Hold My Hand.

Because...
All I wanna do,
is make music,
together,
forever.
That is all I'm asking for.
We'll sing,
and play,
our favorites,
together,
forever.
Sit,
by the piano,
strike a chord.
Our harmony
has just
begun.
Sing,
laugh,
our collaboration
will strengthen.
Live,
Laugh,
Love.
Sing with me,
together,
forever.

Monster

Am I a Monster?
Am I a Monster?
Am I really the puppy for your media?
Your servant
your freak show
No way,
no way.
Am I a monster?
Really a monster?
Am I a joke in your life?
Animal
Hannibal
Cannibal addition
Cannibal addiction
what what?
Papers flying,
cameras flashing,
no more
no more
private life.
Animal, hannibal,
cannibal addition,
cannibal addiction
what what?
Is it,
is it,
really your mission,
is it really your vision
to distroy everything I ever had?
Come on come on,
it's a 2010 thriller.
You are,
you are,
you are really the killer.
YOU are the monster.

This Is Kinda Off Topic... But Here's To You Blakely!

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Untitled #3

Fires burning,
windows opening,
smoke rising,
water running,
fighting to save
the day.
If I were the water,
and you were the building,
I would use up every last bit of me
till I dry out,
just
to save you.
Thunder booming,
lightning striking,
houses broken,
spirits torn.
If I were the next door neighbor,
and you were in distress,
I would run
as fast as I can,
just to save you.
Trees swaying
in the breeze,
rainbows
glistening
after a storm.
A boat floating,
in the vast water.
The sun is shining
bright and true.
If I were the life jacket,
and you were the sailor,
I'd hold on,
mighty strong,
you won't drown,
Because,
I'll do anything to save you.
Because I miss you...
and I love
you.

Fearless

Fearless

I dance with myself.
I sing with myself.
And No one is gonna stop me.  
I have rhythm,
I have music,
I have my friends.
I have my notes,
my songs,
my words,
my mind, 
my freedom of speech.
I have myself,
and no one is gonna stop me.
I'm cautious,
I'm careful,
but I'm a rebel.
Because I dare to be different.
And no one is gonna stop me.
No one at all.
I'm daring,
I'm adventurous,
I'm new,
I'm unique,
and I'm proud.
I'm gonna dare to be different,
and no one is gonna stop me.

I'm fearless.

See you there...

I have nothing else to tell you.
I've done everything I can.
Now?
It's time to wait,
and let life run it's course.
My shoes are worn down,
my socks have holes in the toes.
My violin is sitting in the corner.
I sit, and wait.
It's close to 12:00 already.
My heart is beating fast,
so fast,
I'm loosing my breath.
Now?
It's time to go,
to go through with the journey.
My car pulls up,
we see balloons.
This must be it.

Two
boys
are sitting on a couch.
One I know,
One I don't.
EVERYTHING is awkward.
Two turns to three,
Three turns to four,
Four turns to five,
and then a girl shows  up too.
The conversation loosens up.
We laugh,
we have fun,
we kill each other.

Games galore.
Apples to apples,
mafia,
cops and robbers,
and wand dueling.
He really outdone himself this time.
Having fun,
and then...
OH NO!
I see
a red car pull up.
It's my family's.
I leave, say goodbye,
and go.
This was fun.

What can I do?
What could I have done?
I couldn't say anything,
of course.
But,
still I wonder.
What would've happened if I did?
Hmm...


To be continued...

The start of my re-written lyrics for the song 'I Will Follow You Into The Dark' by Death Cab For Cutie

If you and I collide,
and we both are satisfied,
I'll turn off the light on my vacancy sign.
If there's no one beside you
when you're alone at night,
I'll follow you from the dark.

The Genius On The Other Side Of Town (my take on Genius Next Door, applied to my life)

I first thought the boy was so normal,
then said he was enchanted.
I was trying to keep it quiet,
telling him it was fine.
Then I couldn't hear the laughter,
or fell the happiness at all.
All I could think about was the fact
that I wanted him more than anything.
But everyone around me, was saying,
he doesn't really matter.

There's really, no way,
that I can forget about him.
And there's really no way,
that he doesn't matter.

The genius was running around,
laughing, watching, having fun.
He doesn't know how I feel though,
what would he do if he knew?
And I have go and sit there,
and see him and his shining face.
And try to keep mum,
about the secret I was hiding.

And there's really, no way, 

that I can forget about him.

And there's really no way,

that he doesn't matter.

The morning of a day a year later,
I wake up full of sadness.
to realize he doesn't like me (at all)
Feels like it sucked out my gladness.
I have to go and lie there
and see his face in my mind.
And still try to keep mum,
About the secret I was hiding.

So there's really, no way, 

that I can forget about him.

And there's really no way,

that he doesn't matter.

The Genius,

on the other side of town...

was too special to me.

And what I don't understand is,

why is there all of this madness.

I have to try and forget all about him

because I can't live with this anymore.

A Fantasy Family

It doesn't matter who you are,

where you come from,

Or what you like to do.

As long as you like fantasy,

you are fine.

Come and join our fantasy family

and we'll delve into your imagination.

We'll write stories,

poems,

and reviews.

Generating ideas we never knew we had.

Castles, princesses, and dragons.

Knights in shining armor.

What is that?

Fantasy of our past.

We read that,

when we were kids.

Now?

We entered another phase of our lives.

Magical Beasts,

Unheard-of realms

Spells and potions,

Witches and Wizards.

Reading Fantasy is like a thought.

You never know what's going to happen to it,

Or where it is going to go.

Join our fantasy family

And Discover the world of  make-believe you never knew.

I. Don't. Know.

Why does everything have to be like this?

Why do they have to walk like that,

to talk like that,

to scream like that,

to hit like that?

I. Don't. Know. 

What happened to the good times?

The fun times,

the best times...

Why did they turn into the worst times?

And the worst parts are,

#.1. I'm stuck in the middle of it

#.2. There's nothing I can do to help. Nothing. And it hurts.

              

She talks to me, she explains to me.

I listen.

Then I go back,

and now

She also wants to know.

I can't talk, but it hurts if I don't.

She was so beautiful, 

so fun, 

so easily relaxed.

Now?

She's depressed,

lonely,

and life is not wonderful anymore.

They both are.

And,

contrary to popular belief,

I feel the same way.

Why does everything have to be like this?

Why do they have to walk like that,

to talk like that,

to scream like that,

to hit like that?

I. Don't. Know.

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Personification: Global Mourning

Global Mourning

The Sky looked grim,

fearing what was to come.
And the clouds, weeping softly,
soon steadily poured out their thoughts.
Trees thrashed about in anger; fighting then loosing.
Roots were desperately clinging to the bare soil

        The entire earth was grieving.

More, More, More, and Even More...

I've been through so much tears and sadness
Who knew this would happen to me...
When will be the end of this madness?
Please, please, just let me be.

Ummm...

Should I keep writing... should I stop writing...should I keep writing... should I stop writing...
I don't even know. Every time I try to write, I get gunned down.

What is this world coming to?

More, More, More...

UNTITLED...

When I looked into the eyes
     I was wrapped in a cocoon
Of the person in disguise,
I soon realized,
     Seeing the light of the moon,
I had to guess
to confess.
Can he see,
     No more LIES!
He belongs with me?

It's Poetry to my Ears... (A.K.A. Mazes Upon Mazes...)

I searched deep within chasms of his mind
     Many roads and pathways
To see what I could find
     Something to amaze
When all that I could see
Was my own face staring back at me.

My Gosh, my gosh, my gosh...I just went to go see the new movie, Avatar. There is one word to describe it: AMAZING!!!!! The special effects were wonderful, and the way they made the Na'vi so lifelike! If you thought the effects in Lord of the Rings were cool, think again. I encourage seeing this movie. It has such a powerful message... we NEED to start helping the earth. If we don't...if we don't...if we don't...who knows what could happen? That is just about all I can say about this movie now. I'm tired, and my brain is still frazzled from just seeing this. More tomorrow.

P.S. If you are going to see Avatar, it runs for about three hours, give or take. That INCLUDES the previews. So, be prepared to come home pretty late. Plus, you might want to get to the theatre early...it might be sold out because so many people want to see this. Like I said above... more TOMORROW.

Holidays

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! IF YOU DON'T CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS, THEN, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!

That is all.

"Wow. That is just about all I can say. WOW!"
-Lilly's Purple Plastic Purse

Leven Thumps is amazing... the books are so phenomenal. Obert Skye is such a great author. The words that he uses to describe the different situations throughout the series...

On another happy note about this series... I believe Leven and Winter will start to like each other. Well, they already have, in a sense. But they will admit it, I'm sure!!! If not Winter, then Leven will definitely speak up. In private, of course. If Winter has a separate identity, like, she knows something that Leven does not, possibly something about the Dearth, that would be an interesting change in the plot.
A question for today for my readers:

Which world would you rather go to... Middle Earth (LOTR), or Foo (LT)?

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear,
It's more than I can bare,

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me... oh,
Cause without you things go hazy

I watched you sleeping quietly in my bed
You don't know this now but there's some things that need to be said
And it's all that I can hear,
It's more than I can bare,

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me... oh,
Cause without you things go hazy

What if I fall and hurt myself?
Would you know how to fix me
What if I went and lost myself?
Would you know where to find me
If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me... oh,
Cause without you things go hazy.....

-Rosi Golan

I can't say it...can I? I want to say it...but I don't know when. I have the letter, the right words are plastered into my brain. I wrote the letter, it's saved in my files now. Just waiting to be sent. What will it say, what will it think, what will he do? If I tell it, it'll destroy our friendship...or it might not...if it feels the same way. I HOPE it does, mmmm. Does it? I wonder...I hope this gets resolved. I asked several people for advice, and I am having trouble even fulfilling even one of them. I keep thinking about it, and my heart hurts when I'm not with it, when I'm not even in the same city as it. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I cry. I am quite pathetic, aren't I?

It's here, it's finally here! My newest blog, Sparks and Lightning. This is where I will post my thoughts on books, and other topics. Stay tuned for more!